My E diary!!

This is the 1st post of my 2nd blog. It is meant for posting all my true emotions, feelings, thoughts and everything that i felt like letting out somewhere but not letting ppl whom i don't wish them to know, know about it.... Basically, its the top secret to my heart. Maybe only until the day that i've died that i would wish someone will be able to find out this place...

I've decided to blog here because i felt really emotional today, i really hope that we can be together just like any normal couple, but things just doesn't seem to turn out right from the very beginning, to me, all i wanted was just to have stephanie by my side, be my girlf that i can proudly shout out to everyone that i got a pretty and fabulous girlf, so other competitors can just move one side.

But things just doesn't go that way, from the beginning, obstacles just keep coming up, and finally, just hours ago, i've decided to ask her if her feelings has faded for me. And right, my feelings was right, my guess was spot on and she said yes. Though her exactly answer was alittle, but for someone to say alittle, in such a case simply just means yes in a nicer way. I really don't know how long more can i pull through. But i told her that i will try my best to bring that feelings back to her, i really will, but i am not confident that i will ever do it.

I myself can't see any future between us with such situation that i know i am in, but deep in my heart, i really pray and wish that we will be tgth, i can take care of her for the rest of our lives. Really in doubt for everything now...

Emotion today: Really sad, disappointed and confused...

Signing off blogger.

"Letting go of someone dear to you is hard, but holding on to someone who doesn't even feel the same is much harder. Giving up doesn't mean you are weak! It only means that you are strong enough to let go!"

I just felt like shouting this out loud....