i have been thinking about her almost every second of my life, because i am unsure whether there is still any future between us. how i wish i would have the guts to go up to her, ask her straight into her face about our future, and of course i hope whatever answer that she gave is from the bottom of her heart, be it positive or negative.
has she ever treated me like a boyf before? does she take me as a boyf now? when did her feelings for me started to fade off? does she really hope to get that feelings back and hope that we will end up being tgth and have a future? does she think i will still be good enough for her? what are the things that she really hate about me? all these are the question i feel like asking her. but i guess i just don't have the guts to do it everytime i see her. i felt as though everytime i am with her, things that i ain't happy about her, i would still need to put on a smile to not offend her and make her angry.
should i just keep quiet and continue deceiving myself and know that i ain't happy? or should i just ask her all these straight away?
i don't know how much time i have left, i just feel that time is running out for me. is loving someone and wanting to be with that someone happily really so tough?
been through this whirlpool emotions for quite sometime alr...
open up the way to lead me god!
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